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So much effort, is not easily wasted. As this is the preamble to greater things, I suppose not to much detail is required at this time. Blindsiding. Reminds me of Trainspotting as a word, but blindsiding, like getting hit by a train. Some things can do that to a person. But blindsiding events happen numerous times a day, at least. Opportunities. Blindsiding Opportunities. So much can happen in such a short time and you end up where you were, not knowing anything more than you did when you were there. Or worse, finding out that what you thought when you were where you were was wrong, now... and you have not even had a chance to build the right thoughts until now. You have a lot of work to do. Do not even sit there and say that you are completely sure that everything is just alright in the version of your life, which is not just some set of building blocks, as some might have it. What will we do in 2012? A lot of these things have been happening lately, and having developed the point of view of looking in, things seems harder to see now in the forest. Like I said before, details are not important at this point, but the progression of things is and it must be time to get on with it. I do not see any point in living the day out like it is anything other than it is. Sometimes the instinct is there, in others it seems to have been tamed, thus not inspired. Instinct drives me now, in measured balance. So the goal is to document why what is happening, is happening. I have voices in mind, types of voices to be seen and heard mind you, for what they are saying, and why they are saying it. I can not help the casualties that might happen on the way, as I am not in control of this. The road will lead where it will, I just want to be there in the end. The problem is that considering all of the above mentioned problems, every new idea seems to be a little better than the last, and you must start at one of them, which complicates things to outstanding multiples of proportions. Do not try to pick the right one yourself...
Supposing there was a starting point right about here, which is what this is about anyway, gathering steam and momentum... my subject is there waiting, needing to have the formal part of the interview out of the way. This will be my journey, to find out just exactly what? Nothing can be done, you just have to capture it as it happens...